Conviction and Grace

No one is perfect. I do not strive for perfection, rather I am daily compelled to achieve sainthood. To me, this means that I do my best to know, love and serve God each day. I offer my days, my trials and my achievements - my life - to Him. In my youth, I was more of a spontaneous person, which got me ahead in ways and in trouble at other times. As I approach this middle part of my life, I'm getting better at having actions that are well thought out. Spontaneity is reserved for playing with my children and the adventures we have together. I am consumed with wanting to be a more mature, responsible adult that is respected in my community. I do surround myself with like-minded people, and we encourage each other as we go. It's when I put myself in the public eye that I am faced with ridicule and questioning. So why do I put myself out there? Because it is on my heart that God has called me to evangelize. Maybe not to become a missionary or activist, but a gentle example in word, deed and action. Starting with my family. He has called me to be ready to Lead when the Spirit moves me, and to teach my children to do the same. I think we are all meant for greatness, but with a humble heart that lets others see it is God working through me - and not of myself. That is what I think this sainthood is about.

"Don't shine so that others can see you.

Shine so that through you, others can see [God.]"  - C.S. Lewis

 

This little baby inside me is such another mystery. This is my 7th pregnancy to make it this far, now at 23 weeks. Our 6 children are very excited to welcome a baby boy next spring. We too are so delighted to think about what joy this child will bring to our family! Each child has astounded us with their beautiful personalities and talents that continue to blossom. My husband and I are curious to God's plan in all this that seems so crazy at first, but we trust Him - that He's made this possible and will give us the Grace we need to support our family. Support financially, spiritually, and physically. We have come to realize that our lives are not about us and our achievements. Our grand purpose in life is to help our children become amazing saints for God.

 

Many friends and family have helped us out this past month with prayer, encouragement and some donations. We're doing everything we can to be humble and worthy of their charity and kindness. We are making sure that from this moment forward we are examples of Christ's love in this world, true Catholics living by the teachings we know and studying to get better at it, as well as being responsible with ALL our actions. What miracles and graces that have come into our lives. We've also seen the spirit of true friendship in it all. Often times being physically poor can make you feel so rich in countless ways! Then when we are better off physically, we can be the miracle in someone else's life! What a gift!!!

God can use your life, broken or whole!

Currently we have been focusing on spending time with our children, family and friends. It's the holidays. But we are also focusing on self discipline, money management and physical health. The children are looking to us as an example. We've been a little relaxed in a way that has made parenting more challenging than it needs to be. So after years of trial and error, I think we finally found a method of reward and discipline that works for us. We've realized how we need to react to and teach each child to help them form their souls and personhood. We're more attentive, "slow to anger - rich in kindness." We're being more open with them about our finances, talking to them about responsible spending and what charity means in our life right now. We're looking for opportunities to share our talents and time in volunteering and donations.

Then, in respect for our bodies being a Temple of the Holy Spirit, we are focusing on eating healthier. This will improve our energy, moods and in part financial responsibility. We're starting off the New Year with doing a Whole 30 before resuming our Paleo nutrition plan. Then it's almost time to get the seedlings ready for our garden. We're trying for smarter not harder version of gardening!  We're already off to a good start after consulting our doctor on ways to cut back the pounds. Pinteresting many ideas. Reading up on NFP methods and ways to improve my imbalances. I can truly envision a healthier family in 2015!

Overall I feel confident that we are making the right choices. If we mess up, somehow God will redirect us back on our paths. Many times we've learned that what seems like a mistake or challenge can be turned into something beautiful and meaningful.

 

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Ephesians 3:14-21 (NASB)

^"For this reason I bow my knees before the Father,  from whom every family in heaven and on earth derives its name, that He would grant you, according to the riches of His glory, to be strengthened with power through His Spirit in the inner man,  so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith; and that you, being rooted and grounded in love, may be able to comprehend with all the saints what is the breadth and length and height and depth, and to know the love of Christ which surpasses knowledge, that you may be filled up to all the fullness of God.

Now to Him who is able to do far more abundantly beyond all that we ask or think, according to the power that works within us, to Him be the glory in the church and in Christ Jesus to all generations forever and ever. Amen."

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While we are very well supported in our life by family and friends, there will always be that anonymous commenter or acquaintance who thinks they know better for us. To them I say - hush yourselves! If you do not talk to us on at least a monthly basis… real, face-to-face (or phone), open conversations without censoring… you don't know enough to comment so negatively or judge so harshly. I appreciate you taking the time to comment, but many times your words are just fluttering opinions of the secular world that mean nothing to us. Those who really know us or live a similar way, understand our convictions and that our actions and thoughts are in most cases properly supported by spiritual advisors and church teaching, and well thought out from experience, prayer and study.

I do my best every day to learn more about God's will for me and all Catholics. I do my best every day to make sure that everything I do is an offering to God, because this life is His, not mine. This blog is my place to share that journey with others. To share my knowledge, my frustrations, my convictions with those who are in a similar place.

If you are frustrated by my life, because it's not where you're at - you are not obligated to comment or read my blogs. It's okay to just move on. If you actually know us, you are welcome to open the discussion in person and not hide behind your computer anonymity. But if for some reason you are compelled by my statements to learn more about the "whys" of my comments/decisions… ask away! I'd be happy to share resources and thoughts.

 

 

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NOTICE

Children are a gift from God. Motherhood is a vocation.

God never gives you more than you can handle. His grace is enough.

God knows better. He knows what he's doing. He doesn't make mistakes.

 

If this is so, than what God has gifted me with is just as He intended and He will give me the grace to fulfill His will.

 

 

Can I have such confidence in this, when every day I wake up tired and dreading the work to be done? Or is it me, that in dreading it, that has not accepted the gifts He's given? Can I work myself into a state of dragging myself to bed late each night after a day of cleaning and caring for my family, and still be grateful? Yes.

 

I've grown bitter towards the life I asked for. How dare I scoff at God for what He must consider to be the greatest of blessings…

 

I see a messy house… He sees a lovely home.

I see piles upon piles of laundry… He sees that my children are clothed and playful.

I see lawn mowing, weeding, staining, repairs… He sees land to roam on, flowers blooming, and handiwork.

I hear children whining… He hears children begging for time with their parents.

I hear about our debts… He hears that we are providing the best we can.

I hear silence between me and my spouse… He hears our prayers of thanks for each other.

I feel tired and worn… He feels that I've been busy living and need to let go of unnecessary worry.

I feel lonely… He feels sad that I've forgotten He's always there and gave me a family and friends to lean on.

I feel unappreciated… He feels the same.

 

So when I look back on my day of sorrows and woe, stresses and chaos, debts and chores… I must consider what the Lord sees, hears and feels about my day and PRAISE HIM for it. Why? Because He gave me another day.

 

Another day to see, hear, feel and act differently.

Another day to be grateful that we are fed, clothed and sheltered.

Another day to be grateful for a yard to relax and play in.

Another day to be grateful for a home that memories are made in.

Another day to be grateful for my children and spouse who keep me company, love me and need my talents and love to make this day special for them too.

Another day to offer up my hardships and sufferings to save lost souls.

Another day to know, love and serve God better in all that I have, all that I am and all that I do.

 

I am so blessed, if I'd only notice.

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Out of the blizzard and into our home

The snow lays thickly over the yard, as it come down in one messy storm. Outside is the harsh wind, that dashes the flakes at every angle. Toys are buried, trees weighed down, and roads waiting to be plowed. The news says not to venture out, and shows images of empty roads and vehicles in ditches. Outside is such chaos.

From inside it looks beautiful. The light reflects into our home, with no need to turn on the lamps. The flakes gracefully dance from sky to ground, and through the glass is an mesmerizing snow globe. We're warm and unaware of the frigid chill outside. We go about our day, content with staying in and enjoying each other's company.

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Holy Household

A POST IN PROGRESS!

I always liked having motivational posters in my room, little sayings inside cupboard doors, etc. My mom had a few in our home while growing up, and they always inspired me in times of weakness. My favorite for the past twelve years has been The Serenity Prayer, all over my home.

After finding a few new ones online, I decided to make a printout of some spiritual motivators for our home. While we are a Catholic family, these are great for anyone of a Christian faith! Print onto cardstock and laminate, cut out, and tape onto all sorts of places.

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Soul Building with your Personal Trainer

  

I read that when you have days that you feel like your "cross" in life feels to heavy... don't pray that it be taken from you, pray that you are given a stronger back. In pondering this, I asked in prayer whether God is my personal trainer adding a little more weight to my cross making me stronger - or am I feeling Satan pushing on my wound, hoping I'll drop my cross and give up? Perhaps both?
 

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Women's Stages of Life

When you're single you lead the way, you find new places to sit, and drink with friends.

When you're married, you find your way together, he lets you sit on his lap, and you toast to happy days ahead.

When you're pregnant, everyone is willing to move out of the way, give you their seat, and bring you a drink.

When you have a few kids,

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Quote of the Day

“Give us grace and strength to forbear and to persevere. Give us courage and gaiety, and the quiet mind. Spare to us our friends, soften to us our enemies. Bless us, if it may be, in all our innocent endeavours. If it may not, give us the strength to encounter that which is to come, that we may be brave in peril, constant in tribulation, temparate in wrath, and in all changes of fortune, and down to the gates of death, loyal and loving to one another.”

― Robert Louis Stevenson

 

Sounds a lot like the Serenity Prayer, but very thought out indeed.

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Pondering Getting a Clothesline

I've been thinking about doing some more "natural" living. More home made foods (thanks to food processing companies deciding to support immoral behaviors), and a general desire for healthy eating. Sewing my son a few pairs of washable training pants instead of using 1000 some pullups. Among other things.

 

One of those was pondering putting up a clothesline. Here's what I drew while wondering if it would help us out…

 

 

I'm no so sure my subconscious likes the idea.

 

What do you use your clothesline for? Is it worth it?

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PRO - Marriage Amendment in MN

This November a Marriage Amendment will be up for voting. It is intended to protect the sanctity of Marriage between one man and one woman (which we believe is a sacrament uniting them with God.) It is a natural, life giving union that deserves our attention.

<Watch the video here! It's great!

Of course this stirs up so much commotion between gay liberalists and moral humans. When I received emails regarding this banter, I had to step in and say SOMETHING. I hope my opinion was correctly portrayed, in realization that this is a social issue "backed strongly by the faith community, and is not just a religious issue."

 

The big discussion is focused over the Archbishop's decision to include a prayer at every mass.

Dear Friends,

The current struggle to defend and define marriage within our civil constitution demands a three-fold approach. We must educate our fellow citizens on the meaning and good of marriage. We must actively and resolutely promote widespread participation among our fellow believers in the support of a marriage amendment. And most importantly, we must pray and offer sacrifice for the success of all endeavors that seek to protect and promote marriage.

To help assist in the strengthening of our state-wide efforts to defend marriage in our civil constitution, I am pleased to offer to your community of faith the enclosed prayer. Copies may be ordered through the Office of Worship, and are meant for use within the Holy Mass as part of the Prayer of the Faithful. In addition, I would encourage the posting of the prayer within Eucharistic Adoration chapels, along with an encouragement to adorers to pray for the success of the amendment and all efforts to strengthen marriage.

I would also like to call upon all Catholics of the Archdiocese of Saint Paul and Minneapolis to embrace Fridays as a particular day of prayer and sacrifice for the success of this most current struggle to defend marriage with our civil constitution. Without such deliberate prayers and sacrifices, our efforts will be in vain. But with God, all things are possible.

Much rides on the success of our struggle to defend marriage. May God bless our efforts, and our great state of Minnesota.

With every good wish and a remembrance in prayer, I am,

Cordially yours in Christ,

Most Reverend John C. Nienstedt
Archbishop of Saint Paul and Minneapolis

Heavenly Father,

Through the powerful intercession of the Holy Family, grant to this local Church the many graces we need to foster, strengthen, and support faith-filled, holy marriages and holy families.

May the vocation of married life, a true calling to share in your own divine and creative life, be recognized by all believers as a source of blessing and joy, and a revelation of your own divine goodness.

Grant to us all the gift of courage to proclaim and defend your plan for marriage, which is the union of one man and one woman in a lifelong, exclusive relationship of loving trust, compassion, and generosity, open to the conception of children.

We make our prayer through Jesus Christ, who is Lord forever and ever. Amen.

 

- Here is one post of this nature I added my own comment to, and suggest you do as well.

- Another post saying that the Archbishop is promoting Bigotry!

 

My comment included:

You judge him as a Bigot. A bigot is “a person who is utterly intolerant of any differing creed, belief, or opinion.” OR ” a person who is intolerant of any ideas other than his or her own, especially on religion, politics, or race.”

The Archbishop (as well as myself) may be disappointed in a person’s immoral choices and wish it to be ended, but not “utterly intolerant” of everyone that doesn’t share all his personal beliefs or that is different than him. That’s plain ridiculous to make such a blunt statement towards him and the millions who agree on this Marriage Amendment.

 

I recently had this to say about a blog discussing a talk presented by a priest and married couple at a school.

James 4:11
    "Don't speak evil against each other, dear brothers and sisters. If you criticize and judge each other, then you are criticizing and judging God's law. But your job is to obey the law, not to judge whether it applies to you." NLT

What we as Catholic believe is that Marriage is a sacred Sacramental union between a man, a woman and God as in the very beginning (Genesis). And on this THE CHURCH and it's believers do not waiver. We are not homophobes or bigots, we are morally aware that homosexual behavior is against the law of God.  Visit http://couragerc.net/ for more information on the efforts to help homosexuals live a life of chastity. This is showing a love and tolerance for the God-made person, but intolerant of their choice to act on their immoral desires - and lovingly giving them a way to "carry their cross" and find a different way of expressing their love and desire.

As far as adoption, having an adopted sister myself - we have NEVER felt as if the Catholic church belittled her or us. The issue is with Gay couples who adopt. And again, it's not the adoption that is a bad thing - we all want children to have loving families. It's the idea of what is a family that is conducive to a moral upbringing? A single person or gay couple CAN parent a child, but not in the same enriching way of a husband and wife. It simply isn't raising a child with the "best case scenario" of a mother and father to contribute various needs, and inspiring the beauty of procreation.

[READ HERE FOR BACKING ON THIS IDEA]

Of course this is my quick version of what I believe and understand to be the Catholic teaching. MY best guess is that the presenters at that school did not use the right words to share this belief. I certainly would like a copy of the talk and present it to other clergy who could decide if it was a proper representation or if it could be interpreted as offensive. But do understand, whenever someone's behavior is said to be improper, it is natural to become offended. The comment then needs to be evaluated and taken to heart whether or not it could be true.

 

I TOTALLY AGREE on these quotes below from:

 Responding to Common Accusations and Fallacies

 

"Marriage is not a political institution but rather a social institution that exists prior to government and is not dependent on government. People will marry whether the government is involved or not."

"People can live as they choose. The marriage amendment will not change that. But no one person has the right to redefine marriage for everybody."

"Last I checked, Catholics were American citizens, too, and had a right to participate in public debates and offer their views for consideration. We are not imposing our beliefs on anyone. We are simply proposing what we think is the best marriage policy. People are free to disagree. "

"We are not saying that kids who don’t grow up in the ideal environment are doomed to failure; we are just saying it is a lot harder to achieve success on many measurable outcomes. The law should promote the ideal family structure for raising children, which is the principal reason that government is in the marriage business in the first place."

"Fundamentally, though, marriage (between a man and a woman) is a “common good” in itself with or without children. It channels biological sex drive into stable, productive relationships that benefit both parties. Naturally, men and women are different. Whether children result from their sexual union or not, the couple itself images a productive union and promotes a positive marriage culture. "

---and---

"In the future, it will truly be worth your while to show more respect to those who may disagree with you and to try to understand their point of view instead of writing them notes in which you condemn their character and question their intentions and concern for other people. Respect works both ways."

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A Letter to my first baby

Since My ProLife Story has been accepted with love and respect, I thought it a wonderful thing to share with you the thoughts of an unmarried young woman facing an unplanned pregnancy. This is the letter I wrote to my daughter the day I found out I was pregnant with her. I hope it will somehow reach another woman as comforting in the face of adversity. These 10 years later, I cannot believe how graced I was in hopefulness and knowledge of things to come. I have yet to read it to my daughter, but know the time will be coming very soon.

 

January 3, 2002

To my sweetheart,

Today is the day you became real to me. My future has never been certain, and over much time I have found that God never gives us more than we can handle. He must believe me to be very strong, though I am weak without Him.

I grew up being loved by your grandparents. They taught me how to live as a Christian, and more so as a Catholic, with much responsibility. They taught me how to love unconditionally. Mom and Dad have always held me to my actions and their consequences. Today I am facing the fact that I have acted not according to God’s will, but my own. For that I am deeply sorry. You must remember this: that what you do always affects another, whether or not it is directly.

Tom has meant the world to me lately. He has seen me through the tears when I lost my job, and when I had lost hope. He has seen me though my smiles, and made many ever so bright, when I got a new job, over the holidays, as well as those long rides in the woods. Tom reminds me of my dad when I was young. How he’d hold me in his arms, up on his lap, and shower me with kisses. Dad loves me unconditionally, as so does Tom. Nothing could waver it.

Tom and I have been talking about our wedding day since a few weeks after we met. I think it quite the romantic story that I hope to tell you someday. We’ve been talking about it more and more each day. Everyone knows how serious we are about each other, but our engagement has not been made official (with the diamond ring, just a promise ring all worn to the copper, no announcements). He’s been trying to make sure everything is just right, to make it very special for us.

I am writing you right now because I want to tell you that I know you will be very smart, just like your father and me, and will figure out that we will be married after you were conceived. I am writing so that you understand that we are not getting married because of you, rather because we are very much in love with each other. And you are a result of this love we share. We plan on giving you all our love, and the best life we can offer. The rest is up to you. This is another lesson I’ve learned with my life.

I’ve prayed for your father since I was about 11 years old. I prayed to God that He would bring a man into my life that would support me in my life, beliefs, and share in all my joys - as I would in his. I am so happy to have found him, rather he found me! I’ve wanted to be a mother for even longer. To be able to care for someone that came from me. Someone to love unconditionally, and to the best of my ability. To teach the things I’ve learned, especially my faith in God. So understand that my feelings right now are of happiness to have the two things I’ve always wanted, just not the way I thought they would be.

Tom knows that I may be pregnant, but not for sure. We are going to a wonderful place called Birthline, tonight. They will tell us for sure and help support us in whatever we need at this time. I’ve always been rather calm about these kinds of situations, though this one is much bigger than the rest. You will definitely be our child always, and we plan on raising you as our son or daughter. Your aunt is adopted and was a true blessing to our family. So that is something I may have considered if the situation was different, but because of the certainty of my relationship with Tom, and my love for you, I couldn’t bear to give you away to another family.

Tom will be home soon, and we’ll be going to find out what to do next. Yes, I am worried about telling my parents and his. My family has gained great respect in this community and elsewhere. We haven’t pride, but have a need for respect. Some may look down on this for awhile, but as I mentioned before, my parents love me unconditionally, as so will they love you. People will not be upset at Tom and I, rather at the decision we made. And will watch closely at how we respond.

I hate to think of this as anyone’s “fault” or as a “problem.” It sounds so negative. The birth of any baby is a joyous occasion. I love your father so much I found him hard to resist. I have always believed in abstinence and waiting until marriage. But I am telling you it is most definitely not easy. Sometimes when you love much, you may think less about the results of loving too much too early. It’s not my fault, rather a wrong decision I made, that will effect my life, Tom’s, our families, and most especially yours. For that I am deeply sorry.

I worked with teens the past couple years through the church, and when I was in high school. I’ve seen friends and coworkers become suicidal, lost, unloved, addicted to drugs and alcohol… and I’ve done what I could at the time to comfort them and point them to the way of Christ. And yes, sometimes I’ve failed with them, and even with myself. But since I met Tom, I’ve been getting my life back they way it needed to be. I needed to grow up, learn to be responsible for myself, and strengthen my relationship with my parents and siblings. With my small efforts, God has put many great things before me. At the last conference I went to I was told by a spiritual leader that God had big plans in my life. God doesn’t change his plans, and I trust that as always, he will help me through this.

This letter is a lot for me as well as for you when I find the right moment to read it to you. Please forgive me if this has made your life difficult in anyway. We are both very sorry it happened this way. I am not sure if we can even make it up to you, but I promise to love you unconditionally for always.

Tom always writes a message for me on my little board on my fridge for me to read when I wake up or when I get home. Many times an “I love you” or “Good luck today.” It made me feel special and confident that I am doing the right thing. Here’s my message for you today:

To my baby,

You are a miracle, who has brought tears to my eyes. Tears that love you as you are, and who you will become. In hopes that your father and I will make you proud, and feel loved every day of your life. I am afraid of what some might say, but I have never been more certain that everything will be all right. I told Tom just the other day ‘Love surpasses all understanding.’

All my love,

Melissa

Your Mother

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Third Trimester Nightmares

I can handle the discomforts of being 8 months pregnant. I can attempt to get a handle of my 4 young children. But what I cannot handle are these very vivid nightmares I've been having!

I read that because of intense hormone changes and stresses of pregnancy, dreams tend to become more vivid and memorable after waking. Let me just say it, THIS SUCKS! Last night was the worst. I can usually justify the nightmares with the fact that my husband and I tend to snore, thus resulting in dreams of growling bears. This morning, my husband was gone and along came a dinosaur! It was enough to prompt me to research my nightmares, with astounding results that are right on for my daytime moods and fears.

 

My reoccurring nightmare usually includes our old Cold Spring house in the woods on the lake. As I approach the house, the family of bears spot me. (In real life, there were no bears in the area.) As I enter the house, it either has all screen doors or glass windows (similar to the image above). Either way I am vulnerable to attack.

I usually get in to the empty house to attempt locking all doors as the bear follows me just yards away. Lucky for me, I tend to wake up shortly after.

According to DreamMoods.com:

To see a glass house in your dream suggests that you need to be cautious about what people are telling you. They may be telling you what you want to hear, and not necessarily what you need to hear.

To dream that you are being pursued or attacked by a bear, denotes aggression, overwhelming obstacles and competition. You may find yourself in a threatening situation.

To dream that you are locking the door suggests that you are closing yourself off from others. You are hesitant in letting others in and revealing your feelings. It is indicative of some fear and low self-worth.

 

Last night, there were a stable of wild horses that had it in for me. It makes me guess my husband or I had more of a "phfbbb" snore like a horse sound. There were a few other animals, such as a stubborn cow pushing the gate open, and some dogs. But why I had to contain the horses and cow by myself in a basement stall under the house??? Why my farmer father-in-law stood by and watched? Why an old high school acquaintance I never think about suddenly appears to serve me a weird molasses treat my father-in-law left on a nearby post?

 

According to DreamMoods.com:

To see a herd of wild horses in your dream signifies a sense of freedom and lack of responsibilities and duties. Perhaps it may also indicate your uncontrolled emotions.

To see a cow in your dream symbolizes your passive and docile nature. You obey others without question. Alternatively, a cow represents maternal instincts or the desire to be cared for. For some cultures, the cow represents divine qualities of fertility, nourishment and motherhood.

To see a dog in your dream symbolizes intuition, loyalty, generosity, protection, and fidelity. The dream suggests that your strong values and good intentions will enable you to go forward in the world and bring you success. The dream dog may also represent someone in your life who exhibits these qualities. Alternatively, to see a dog in your dream indicates a skill that you may have ignored or forgotten. If the dog is vicious and/or growling, then it indicates some inner conflict within yourself.

To see or eat molasses in your dream, signifies a happy home life and good hospitality. Alternatively, the dream may be a metaphor for some situation or something that is moving slowly.

To see your father-in-law in your dream refers to your conscience and your rational side. You need to be more yielding in your point of view and decisions.

To see an acquaintance in your dream represents aspects of yourself that you are still trying to get to know. To dream that you are disputing with an acquaintance represents aspects of yourself that you are rejecting. You are refusing to accept certain things about yourself.

To dream that the basement is in disarray and messy signifies some confusion in which you need to sort out. These are things that you have "stored" away or put aside in your mind because you do not know what to do with it or you do not have the time to deal with it. It may also represent your perceived faults and shortcomings.

 

 

The next dream (today) starts with losing my luggage on a school bus that left without me. I somehow get home and unable to use a regular landline phone to call for help. Forgetting all the dial codes and phone numbers…

Then what about that Dinosaur suddenly appearing, chasing me and my oldest daughter around the house, without the ability to keep it out despite our best efforts? It also grows the closer we get to safety. It was about 6 inches tall growing up to just over 3 feet tall before I woke up.

 

According to DreamMoods.com

To see or ride a school bus in your dream suggests that you are about to venture on an important life journey needed for your own personal growth.

To dream that you lose your luggage represents a lost in your identity.

To dream that you cannot dial a phone number correctly suggests that you are having difficulties in getting through to someone in your waking life. Consider whose phone number you are trying to dial. Perhaps he or she is not taking your advice or listening to what you have to say. The message is not getting through.

To see a dinosaur in your dream symbolizes an outdated attitude. You may need to discard your old ways of thinking and habits. To dream that you are being chased by a dinosaur, indicates your fears of no longer being needed or useful. Alternatively, being chased by a dinosaur, may reflect old issues that are still coming back to haunt you.

To see something growing in your dream indicates that you have reached a new level of maturity or spiritual enlightenment.

 

SO - A RECAP OF MY DREAM MOOD:

Glass House + Bear + Locking Up=

I feel like there are many overwhelming obstacles in my life. What I tend to do is become hesitant in revealing my feelings. People are telling me what they think I want to hear, but not what I am needing to hear. Probably because they don't know or understand how I'm really feeling.

 

Wild Horses + Cow + Dogs + Molasses + Basement Barn + people=

Everything is moving so slowly including the pregnancy and my ability to handle this household. I procrastinate because I do not know what else to do. I have uncontrolled emotions and a desire to be cared for.  My rational side is trying to know me better, so I can use my newfound strengths to get me through. I have strong values and good intentions that will help me move forward.

 

School Bus + Lost Luggage + Phone Numbers + Growing Dinosaur=

I am on an important life journey, but along the way I am losing my identity. I am having troubles getting though (to my husband) about how I feel and what I need to feel better emotionally. Resulting in a growing fear of no longer being needed or useful.

 

Can I just say, Woah! That is all true. Sad, but true.

Now, I just need to take note of all this and do something about it. To stop the nightmares and conquer my emotional issues. Find my strengths and move forward!

 

Do you have vivid nightmares? Post a comment!

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Congrats to Jamie!

Congratulations to my old friend Jamie who announced the birth of her precious baby boy who came home with them for Christmas. Please keep her, the baby, and her family in your prayers as they take care of their 6th child who has a few surgeries ahead of him.

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I see famous people

I am told that especially when I am pregnant, I am extra perceptive to my friends' and family's look-a-likes. Ever recognize someone, but don't know where from??? I feel like that all the time. In fact, it has been on my mind a lot lately. (I am pregnant after all.)

Apparently I look like LeAnn Rimes and Christina Brinkley? Flattering, yes.


Here are my family's look-a-likes as perceived my me… Note: this is face to face, not personality. They don't see it, but I do! So here is my proof!

My Husband = Ray Romano and Adam Sandler

My Daughter = Jodie Sweetin (Full House)


My Dad = VP Dick Cheney

My Father-in-Law = Pres George W Bush

My Mom = Jamie Lee Curtis

My Sister = Sandra Oh

Her Husband =  Sean Murray (in NCIS McGee) and Peyton Manning

My Brother = Leonardo DiCaprio

My Brother-in-law = Robert Downey Jr

My Uncle = David Tomlinson (in Mary Poppins)

his wife, my Aunt = Julie Andrews (in Mary Poppins)

and their daughter, my cousin = Annasophia Robb (in Soul Surfer)

Cousin-in-law = Justin Long [Which he admits to]

Our Son's Godfather = Christian Bale

My sister's friend = (in Narnia, Susan)


I have a much longer list. But this gives you an idea of how close I get! Do you have a double??? Please share!

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